Since 2 days sinus was like killing me from inside out. The pain had encroached its area till my left ear, thanks to Sinarest and Procillin. It was a bit relief. Couldn't sleep whole of yesterday night. And finally, as it always happens, I got up and called up my buddy. It was 5am.

Its an unwritten rule between us, whenever any one of us calls at the odd morning time, its time a of Birdwatching. Packed my bag with my Olympus binos, shades, camouflage cap and jeans, kurta and my bike. All setup, rode towards his home. At 5.30, we were on highway towards our birdwatching destination. That Sacred Lake.

The Sun was almost out, as its summer, and we had no fascination to see sunrise as it loses its a bit charm in summer or may be we were not interested. 

Reached at lake at 5.50. And she welcomed us with a brilliant flamboyant yellowish red colors of Flamingos. Awesome. I would advise to all best buddies and well wishers to take a glance of this bird at least once in a life. Its a lifetime experience to see a flock of 300 flamingos in front on the eyes.

Takes loads and tonns of patience, of course, else they get scattered and the result is spoiled view. When we are out on birdwatching we hardly talk. Its just our binoculars speaks. 

The real real fun was with Laser whistling ducks. And actually it takes a bit more nerve wrecking efforts to listen them whistling. Its not that they whistle in low volume, its the right time they chose to whistle. But yes.. its an unmatched musical experience one can ever have. We had.

Yes.. This is white ibis. Watching her is also much fun as she digs down the earth for her food with her digger shaped beak. All the morning it was fun and enriching the knowledge with Black winged stilts, crusted larks, roody shellducks, egrets, ring plovers.

And finally, on the bank this lake there was a Ganesh temple. So, all started and ended well with a great birding.

Sinus, gone :) back home by 10.30am. 

Love.

Shantanu :)

My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning and yet I am happy. I cant' figure it out. What am I doing right.? huuhh.. Its certainly not my thought, but the state of course. This is by Charles Schulz, an American cartoonist who created a comic "Peanuts" and put millions of smiles on human faces. Most of us knows this. This is how I experienced his thought.

Just 2-3 hours ago, I was on my bike to get my Moms' blood sugar report, its not that normal but regular walks can control that. So I was like chill. Riding a bike, only in the evening, is fav to-do thing on my daily schedule these days. It was as always a cool soothing air and Akons' "Beautiful" was buzzing in my ear phone, its just the fantastic being in such state. Akon, bike, cool winds, no jerky roads and very rare traffic. I just feel like 'The Salvation". Being with myself and pampering like are my nowadays- buzz words.

Cars, bikes, and others were passing by. I was watching them, shooking my head on the rhythm of songs buzzing . It was all going fun as usual. Then in a moment of fraction one Scorpio was passed very rashly, that too overtaking me. It was like a bad stroke which suddenly whirled my epinephrine and then chase began. Overtook in 2 min.

Then again the same thing, overtaking. This time again the same Scorpio. By the time we did a rounds of this overtake-thing 2 to 3 times, I very seriously noticed that someone inside the car was enjoying this with all the heavy laughter. On the careful observation I realized that she was a someone as cute as Angel, around 3 to 4 years of age.

Whenever I overtook, she used to become sad. And whenever her car overtook me, she had all the joys of victory on her face. It was feeling so satisfying to look her smiling that for sometime I thought is it only this small thing that can make her happy, that can make her smile.? Awesomee..!! Of course, the few wonders of the world exist while there are those with the sight to see them.

For some times I won the race and for most of the times I lost. Have you ever witnessed that sweet, innocent and selfless smile.? Anything for that.. The best part comes now. While I was on my winning and losing marathon, she was well aware that I was losing intentionally, and I was shocked to notice this awareness. The time came when I smiled at her and was bidding goodbye gesture "bybye" by shooking my left hand as I had to take turn.

To my surprise, she called me with her small right hand by "come here" gesture. We were in motion, there was hardly a time to think what were her intentions. I didn't think much and went closer by. As soon as I reached near her rear window she handed over me a small folding of papers, many papers and thrown flying kisses, byebyes. I kept those inside my shirt and replied her with the same kisses and byes. Happily departed.

I was like on the top of the world. It was just a feeling of something good was moving inside. I dont know what it was.! infact what it is.. uhh..!! After 5 min, I stopped for fag n tea near my patented tapri. I took one sip and removed those papers from inside my Tee to see what it was. And guess what it was.. "Peanuts" by Charles Schulz.

I am still touched.

Luck. Shan :)

It was a humble and humiliating experience while reading the same. It has everything in it that any bachelor boy or girl have to experience inevitably or by choice or by his / her stubbornness to repeat the same past mistakes from the day he / she becomes an adult till the marriage, and of course beyond the marriage, what we generally call these days as EMA (extramarital affairs).

Break ups, hook ups, make outs, ditching, dumping, EMAs, live-ins, one night-stands, friends, so called best friends, disappointments n everything that we can find in today's so called illusion called relationships we can find in this book. Nevertheless book contains all this, it doesn't stop on these craps only. It has very beautifully portrait ed the very basic element that is missing in every of these relationships, Love of course. And also a tiny element of every youngsters life which has been conveniently overlooked, The God.!!

At this point of my journey, i have kind of given up to think what exactly it is and frankly speaking i have no right to judge and express anything about this as i am enjoying well my khulla-saand wala time ;) ..

Anyways, but being an adult mysterio i can observe and avoid doing mistakes that i have witnessed throughout and can help those cripping souls around me, at least can try, what else.!!

Lets say.. -

we, now i am including myself as well, are passing through all these different loves, love of parents, love for friends, love for spouse and so forth. We slowly exercise the faculty of love, but in the majority of cases we never learn anything from it, we become bound to one step, to one person. In some cases men come out of these bondage. Men are ever running after wives, wealth, and fame and noone is exception to this. Noone in this world can really love anything but God.

This is how it is, read ahead. This is not a spiritual lecture, but the hard truth learned through good lessons.

Men cannot love though they talk of it, i am also not an exception to this. The wife says she loves her husband and kisses him; but asa he dies, the first thing she thinks about is the bank account, and what she will do next day. The husband loves the wife, but when she becomes sick, and loses her beauty, or becomes haggard, or makes a mistakes he ceases to care for her.

As Mr. Narendra Dutt says, all the love of the world is hypocrisy and hollowness. He is Swami Vivekananda, btw. Sometimes looks true. But its unavoidable, we are a part of this cycle, something called karmayoga.

we grasp something, and find it slips through our fingers, and then we grasp something else. Thus, we go on and on, till the last light comes. ohh.. wats that..!! someone whose love knows no change, and ever ready to take us in. He in whose mind is no anger, hatred or envy etc.. lil heavy one.

lets see one another classic example ;

girlfriend or wife for the matter of fact and to avoid other dilemmas, loves her husband. She thinks that her whole soul is absorbed in him; a baby comes , and half of it goes out to the baby, or somewhat more. She herself feels that her love for her husband does not exist now as it was before. so with the husband.

We always find that when more intense objects of love come to us the previous love slowly vanishes. Similar is the case with children, animals and with the whole lot of finite objects which are made up of 5 basic elements.

One star arises , another bigger one comes , and then still a bigger one, and at last the sun comes, and all the lesser lights vanish. who's that sun btw..? some creatures have it but donot realise the same until they loose him.. some may keep trying and donot realise that that was the previous one. When that sun bursts upon him, a man becomes what emerson calls it as "God-intoxicated man".. too heavy for me.

That is what keeps happening in "of course i love u.."

what it sends is, love never comes until there is freedom. There is no love possible in slave. If you buy a slave, he'll work for you, but like a drudge. There will be no love in him. Every act of love brings happiness and peace and blessedness in its reaction.

suppose a man loves a woman; he wishes to have her all to himself and feels extremely jealous every moment, he wants her to sit near him, to stand near him, and to eat and to move at his bidding. He is a slave to her and wishes her as his slave. This is kind of a regular picture in the relationships today. This is not love; it is a kind of morbid affection of the love, insinuating itself as love. Then we go for the next one, and the next and next.

It cannot be love, because everytime it brings about painful reaction with it. With love there is nothing like pain, it has only reaction of bliss.

So.. whats the catch..? should we stop searching. give up. or indulge till we find someone better.

to me its very simple. We always receive, what we have given. good things happens to good people. Friends, someone we should never give up on.

the book is a good to read.